This is a re-publishing of a post I wrote last year. I was in the process of moving from Charlotte to Pittsburgh, and thinking a lot about life. I love this post and the things I write about here are things I think about almost daily.

Source: MC Masterchef
Right now I am in limbo. No longer a part of my old life here in Charlotte: no belongings, no tasks at work, and my friends are becoming distant. But I'm also not a part of Pittsburgh yet. My stuff is there, but I don't know what it's like. I can't even remember everything about our new house. It's a life I am trying to imagine that I have yet to live. Who will be my friends? Will I find my way around? What will it be like? Will I change into a different person? How will I change?
My friend and I were talking earlier about life's many paths. We found it very interesting how life seems to present what you need at the time you really need it. If you are unhappy in a certain part of life, and you are really looking for a change, something always comes up. I am not a believer in a predestined life. I believe we each create our own paths out of the choices available. Obviously I cannot become someone totally different than who I am or force someone to give me a job or change my past, but I do not believe everything is already set and I have no freedom of choice.

Source: Carbon NYC
I like to think of life more like moving and set pieces like in the Labyrinth game; when you need something and the paths line up, you can move to the next space and go along the next path, but if you don't need it you may not even notice the new path and you will stay where you are and keep going on that path. Some pieces are set and unchangeable, but other parts constantly are moving - some by your choice and some not.
It's just amazing how it happens consistently.
For example, earlier in my life, I really wanted a relationship and suddenly one was presented. I was open to it and so I saw the opportunity. But how many times have there been other relationships presented that I never noticed or considered because I wasn't looking for the opportunity?
In the same vein, my friend was in a job that was awesome when she took it, but later became a huge source of unhappiness for her. The owner had transferred her to a part of the business she had no interest in whatsoever, when a few really great opportunities for new jobs presented themselves, and now she is very happy with her new job.
I think the key is constantly being aware of how things are going for you, and if they aren't so great, maybe it's time to at least open your mind to new things?

Source: Red Devil
I am right in the middle of a huge change in my life, and I almost feel like I am out at sea. Or like it's the calm before the storm of changes. I'm a million emotions and feelings at once. Bored, overwhelmed, scared, excited, anxious, free...
I'm on the precipice of a new adventure for sure.
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
At The Precipice
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4 comments:
i know how it feels...but the great news is that you always come out better on the other side, regardless of what the other side is!
Heather - I agree! And even if it isn't good - you can always change again.
I DEFINITELY know how you feel. Heck, thats sort of how I feel right now. I have told friends I have a "10-week plan"... aka I have a 10-wk internship...then I have to "get my shit together" :/ but its sort of exciting at the same time. Scary but exciting. So much opportunity in the unknown.
I am so excited for you! Almost as if it were my big moving adventure!! I can't wait to hear all about your drive up, the unpacking, your first few days there and then your adventures meeting new friends. It is almost like going to college again. Instead of picking and attending classes, you get to "pick" your job and then maintain your grades in that. You are going to really enjoy this change. Be open minded. Realize that even if things don't seem ideal at first, you should just try to enjoy every single step in the process because you have no "do overs".
I am happy for you and I think you will be just fine.
Love ya!
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